I'm BBBBAAAAACCCCCKKKKK!!!

Well, people who read this blog, I'm back.

"Why??" you ask. Because my facebook peeps keep telling me that I really really need a blog, and I have one, I just haven't written in it for two years. It is sitting here all lost and alone in the internets. Waiting patiently, or maybe not so, for me to come back and care about it.

I am hoping writing will be easier--theraputic, perhaps.

And since I'm spewing forth little and big pieces of my life, I'm hoping someone finds my writing interesting.

And now for the disclaimers--and there are many:

I graduated from high school in 1986 and didn't finish college. I stay home all day and clean, cook and shop. You want proper grammar, spelling and the like--leave now. I am going to write like I talk and I'm sure it won't be pretty.

I cuss. A lot. I am not proud of it, but it is me. Sorry. Consider yourself warned.

There is no topic that is completely off limits.....my period, my mood swings, my political views. If you want me to write about something, let me know.

I will NOT fight with you. If you hate me, then hate me quietly and leave me alone. I've got a lot of shit on my plate and the last thing I want to hear about is how my children could be better citizens if I would have taken the time to breastfeed or vote republican.

Other than that, I'm going to bed. Tonight was my weekly Go-and-buy-crap-from-Target run and I'm friggin tired.

Mother of the Year

OK....when I was a total bitch to Matt last week, I felt like maybe Aunt Flo would be moving in for her monthly appearance soon. Yesterday was soon.

I am going to be one of those crazzzy bitches who complains about her period, but I'll stop, I promise. So if you can't handle it, go down a couple of paragraphs....really. Pinky promise.

TMI: I have awful periods. The carniage....I wear overnight pads because that is the only thing that can handle the stuff. And I cramp up like hell. Now, mix any kind of pain killer with that, and you get ultra carnage, so I try to suck it up and do without. Usually though, around day 3 and maybe 2 pairs of ruined underwear later, I give up and then all hell breaks loose.

I HAVE been to the doctor about this. They can do nothing. Even an increase in my synthroid doesn't do much. When I first started taking it, yeah, things got better--if you count better being 5 days a month wearing a diaper instead of 8. And my cramps went down to the "almost tolerable" instead of the "give me a spoon so I can scrape out my uterus myself" variety.

Hey, but I'm all about the fun right????

It is 9 am here. So far, I've emptied my dishwasher, made some coffee and feed my kids a vanilla shake for breakfast.

Yep. A. vanilla. shake. I've officially entered the I-don't-give-a-shit-anymore land. They thought they could ask for smoothies, and I don't have any of the stuff to make them now, so they happened upon the ice cream. Begging and pleading ensued and they won.

You can vote me in for mom of the year any time you choose.

I just want to state for the record that the other oh, 27 days of the month, I put a lot of effort into raising my kids and making sure they eat a combination of healthy foods--lots of fruits and veggies, milk, 100% juice. I cook a lot. I am not perfect, Friday's are pizza night. We eat McDonalds once a month. We do crafts, play outside. Read, run around and go to the park.

There will probably be none of that today. I have hit a brick fucking wall.

So, Internet, the mom of the year application will be on my fridge. Feel free to stop on by and fill it out. Just make sure to take one or both of the little kids with you when you leave--oh, and while you are here, you can borrow a dog or three too.

Have a nice day. I'm going back to bed.

Snippets of My Day

Because my life is oh so interesting, I figured I would let you know how my day went in bullet point.......cuz I'm all about the fancy.

• Got up at 6 ALONE....made coffee, unloaded the dishwasher.
• Nate got up at 7. Was quiet and watched PBS kids shows.
• Quinn didn't emerge until almost 9, probably because he woke up at 11 last night and decided he wanted to hang out with me. He fell asleep again at 12:30.
• Gave the boys 3 choices for breakfast: blueberry pancakes, eggs or cereal. They chose cheese. I asked twice more and then gave up. It was cheese and fruit for breakfast, because I'm such a great mommy.
• Bob shit in the basement. And Quinn stepped in it.
• 15 minutes later, Nate got the big d, and had problems getting all of it off his butt.
• Nelson peed on the kitchen floor--in his defense, I knew he had to go out, and if he could have crossed his paws and performed the pee-pee dance he would have, then Nate had his butt issues and I got sidetracked, and oh well.....
• Nate ended up wanting a bath.
• Quinn wanted one too.
• Answered e-mail, played with their Webkinz so Quinn could get the couch he wants.
• Called mommy.
• She's deaf.....she talked with my Auntie Jean. My cousin has 3 weeks--not 3 months.
• Got boys out of tub. Cleaned the floor. Sent them to living room to take a break.
• Nate falls asleep. Quinn sucks his thumb and falls over 10 minutes later.
• Lunch was hot dogs, chips, carrot sticks and applesauce.
• Milk guy delivered milk.
• Bob shit in basement--again.
• Outside for an hour and a half before Quinn tried to beat Nate with a wiffle ball bat because Nate called him a "booger."
• Matt finally wakes up.
• Matt takes out garbage and asks for 4 bucks.
• I gave it to him and he left for places unknown.
• Get dinner ready. Speghetti with meat sauce and garlic breadsticks.
• Paul comes home.
• Talk to Auntie Jean without interuption. She asks me to call my great Aunt Lou.
• Call Aunt Lou and let her in on what's happening.
• Cry.
• Cry some more.
• Talk to best friend, Mo. We talk almost everyday, but haven't seen each other in oh, 2 years. She lives 2 hours away in Indianapolis.
• Join a coupon site.
• Take IQ test--133--not bad for an airhead.

Write blog. So there you have it. My day in a nutshell. I'm going to bed now. My darling husband will be up at 3am. Have a great night.

100 Things About me

Ok....I have read other people's blogs and they have these 100 lists.....I tried to put mine elsewhere, but I went over my 500 character limit. I spent some time on this, so here it is.

1. I share a birthday with George Harrison (Feb. 25)
2. I turned 40 this year. (2008)
3. I attended Ball State University (alma mater of David Letterman, Jim Davis--the guy who created Garfield, and Joyce DeWitt--Janet of Threes Company.
4. Matt's birth father, Bud, was my first love and really broke my heart when he left me.
5. I got over him and know we are better off without him.
6. I met Paul on a dare to place a personal ad.
7. Our second date, we figured out we had actually met when I was pregnant with Matthew and he was engaged to someone else.
8. I knew from the second week we were dating that he was the one.
9. We were married two years before we found out he was sterile.
10. I went a little nuts for awhile and tortured myself by going to Babies R Us and looking at baby stuff.
11. We went through fertility testing and 2 unsuccessful IUIs before getting pregnant with Nate.
12. Nate was a twin. I lost that baby at 7 weeks.
13. I was so grateful for one baby making it, I didn't mourn the twin until I was in labor and I had to have 2 sacs broken.
14. Quinn is my mini me.
15. He was only 3 weeks early but almost died because his lungs weren't mature yet.
16. I didn't handle the entire baby in the nicu well. I woke up screaming after 90 minutes of sleep.
17. Paul was afraid for me at that time, he called the doctor daily to ask what he should do.
18. Matt is autistic and was not expected to speak, read, do math, or socialize.
19. He graduated in June 2008, received 6 varsity letters, made the honor roll, and has a girlfriend.
20. Nate has aspergers
.21. Nate is one smart cookie and is harder to work with than Matt.
22. I worry about Quinn and watch for signs all the time.
23. I also worry about worrying too much about Quinn, I don't want to make too much out of nothing.
24. I have always wanted to be a SAHM.2
5. My house is a mess and that drives me nuts.
26. I have tried doing FlyLady and love her, but I need to declutter.
27. I hate doing laundry.
28. I love grocery shopping.
29. I wish I had just a little me time to scrapbook and cross stitch.
30. I have fought depression for years, sometimes with medication, and sometimes not.
31. Paul had a bad 3 years on the job scene, so no insurance, so no medication, I've been on my own.
32. He just went back to work and finally has a good job.
33. I hope this one works out cuz I make a crappy poor person.
34. My favorite color is red.
35. I love Nancy Grace's hair.
36. Most people don't know who Nancy Grace is so they can't imagine her hair.
37. I used to be very into fashion and accessories.
38. Being poor and overweight can sure put a crimp in clothing choices, so I gave up.
39. Before getting pregnant with Nate, I lost almost 90 lbs.
40. I've gained part of it back.
41. I want to lose the weight again.
42. My blog name comes from a college buddy who drove up to a McDonald's drive up and said, "I'd like world peace and a cheeseburger please." It was funny at the time.
43. We have 4 dogs now, but have owned 4 other dogs.
44. Our jack russell terrier, Merit, died 3 years ago.
45. We adopted her niece, Snapshot, shortly afterwards.
46. Snap was pregnant at the time and our breeder didn't know it.
47. I don't know nothing about birthing puppies.
48. Starr was a still birth.
49. Luckie died two days later--Snap layed on him and smothered him.
50. Snap got cancer and died less than a year later.
51. Paul still cannot look at jack russell terriers without tearing up.
52. I tear up too.
53. Our chocolate lab, Clara, died recently too. We miss her.
54. I am adopted.
55. My parents had two children who died before I was born and my mom was advised to have children by one doctor and not to by another--so they adopted me.
56. The following year, in June, she had my brother, Azzwipe.
57. My brother is just a waste of space.
58. He has 4 kids, all of them raised by my parents.
59. He is one selfish bastard.
60. Dad likes him best and treats him like a God.
61. That drives me nuts.
62. I'm an ass kisser and want to make people happy.
63. My parents didn't show up for Matt's graduation party. They wanted to go to an auction.
64. I haven't forgiven them.
65. Paul's parents died before I got pregnant with Nate.
66. I really miss them a lot.
67. I love all things Disney.
68. The only vacations we have been on as a family have been to Disney World.
69. We are Notre Dame fans.
70. Quinn is named after Brady Quinn...my idea.
71. I went to Vegas with my friend, Mo, and would really really love to go back.
72. I can't wait for school to start.
73. I have a "lottery house" in town-a house that I would buy if we ever won the lottery. It is still for sale and I drive by all the time to look at it.
74. I love reading organization and decorating magazines.
75. If this job works out for Paul, I'll be doing less reading and more buying to get things done around here.
76. My favorite dish is fresh mozzerella and tomato salad.
77. I love cooking.
78. I have way too many cookbooks.
79. I still have 3 of my favorite stuffed animals from way back when I was little: Mr. Fish, Brown Teddy, and Go Go (some wierd clown thing).
80. I will never get rid of those stuffed animals either.
81. I am anal about the organization of my pantry.
82. This drives Paul nuts.
83. I'm a closet Wiggles fan. Anybody who can make both of my boys that happy is wonderful in my eyes.
84. I love Wierd Al. Matt loves him too.
85. Paul looks kinda like Drew Carey, and I think he's sexy.
86. I really can't think of a star that is still alive that I actually like
.87. I'm crazy about Cary Grant, Jimmy Stewart, and John Wayne. They make me swoon.
88. I love the Beatles and Elvis.
89. I also listen to Kanye West and Usher.
90. I have enough scrapbooking stuff that if I died at 95 and spent 7 hours a day scrapbooking, I'd still leave stuff behind for my kids.
91. The same goes for cross stitching.
92. I hate being stuck at home all day with the kids..we only have one car.
93. Politicly, I lean more to the conservative side.
94. I love both John McCain and Barack Obama personality wise.
95. I am full of useless knowledge. I rock at trivia games.
96. I'm running out of stuff to tell you about me.
97. I need more Clinique foundation.
98. Quinn lost my charm bracelet yesterday. He is so lucky I love him.
99. I love going to Borders, getting a stack of books and magazines and reading.
100. I have some serious love for Target

Stuff About Me

There isn't much to tell about me. At least the really interesting stuff. I'll try to make things short and sweet.

I married Paul in 1994 on his 30th birthday.
My son Matt was born in August 1989, Paul adopted him the year after we married.
We had Nathaniel July 2002.
Quinn was born April 2004
We are owned by 4 dogs: Bob--a 12 year-old rat terrier, Sadie--a 10 year-old lab/shephard mix, Nelson--a 9 year-old westie and something else, and Alice--a 5 month old God-knows-what pup.
Both of Paul's parents are dead, and I no longer talk to mine.
I'm a SAHM.
I love scrapbooking and cross stitching.
I don't ever seem to have enough time to do either.
Two of my three boys are "on the spectrum" (autism and aspergers)--Matt and Nate.
I am afraid that Quinn might be too.
I used to want 6 kids.
I'm about ready to lose my mind with 3.
I need to channel my inner June Cleaver and get my messy house clean.
I would love to spend a day completely alone.
I love all things related to Disney World.
Our family is Catholic.
I worry about money all the time.
Heck, I worry about everything all the time.